Sorry I’ve been M.I.A. I ended up in the hospital after a severe seizure. Will be back soon! 💜 #epilepsywarrior #purplewarrior #epilepsyawareness #fblogger #dutchblogger #bblogger #styleblog #bloggerlife #emergencyroom #latergram #igdaily #commedescoco

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I’m really sorry for the lack of updates, but it hasn’t been a great week for me. I ended up in the hospital (again) after a seizure, cut my head open, just when I thought I could leave that annoying disease behind me, it appears to be back again. Just gotten my driver’s license back, been seizure free for over a year. Don’t remember what happened, just woke up on the floor. So a little shaken up, but slowly getting back on my feet. I refuse to let this disease take over. x Chantal

For as long as I can remember, I’ve been an introvert person. It’s a way of dealing with things, and sometimes a way to hide myself. It’s started in school, when I realized I was a bit different: my style, my hair, I wasn’t an  outgoing type. People would make fun of me, look at me different, call me names, and I started to question myself. Why can’t I just look the way I want to, and be as quiet as I want to? I started to doubt myself. Somehow people always find it hard: a girl that has an outspoken way of dressing and styling herself,who is a professional singer, who entertains people for a living, is a quiet and introvert girl in her daily life.

I have accepted myself, and know that I’m an introvert person, but am super social when it comes to my person social life or when I’m working as a vocal coach or as a singer or songwriter for other artists.

I still I have my insecurities. Last week I went into hiding. I was tired, had some really bad breakouts on my face and wasn’t comfortable in my own skin. I just needed a week to find some inner peace and battle things out. Please excuse me for being a crappy blogger, but sometimes life isn’t perfect or about Instagram edits and photoshop cannot save everything.

So for today I’ll sharing some of my insecurities and awkwardness.

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